Five years! I watch you sleeping and I can’t believe you’re already five! I remember how tiny you were when you were born. You came out a bit too early and we got worried if you will be okay. Well, nothing to worry about because slowly, the little baby grew into a precocious little boy!
I can see how smart you are. You love your books and numbers. You’re doing more than I did when I was your age! I also see you’re such a perfectionist and I worry about that. You see, you don’t have to be perfect. It’s okay to make mistakes. And I hope you won’t get mad at mommy for letting you fail sometimes. Or if I let you cry. Because I want you to learn from your mistakes. It’s the only way for you to grow. Don’t be scared, I will be there when you need me.
Five years. I cherish every moment. Did you know that you’re one of my greatest teachers?! I learned how to be a mommy from you. I learned that I could give until there was almost nothing to give. I learned how far I could go without getting angry. I learned that a life of chaos with you and your brother could be so fun! I haven’t learned everything yet, so if I fail you sometimes, please be patient with mommy. I will try again.
Thank you for loving me and daddy. Thank you for loving your grandparents. Please take care of your ading. No matter how much he annoys you, he will always be your baby brother. Don’t you notice how he’d follow you wherever you go? Or do whatever you do? He doesn’t have anybody else to look up to but you.
People say you are my karma, that all my little naughty deeds are coming back to me through you… oh, but you’re such a beautiful karma! I really don’t mind!
Happy birthday anak! Enjoy your special day!